Have you ever said something stupid, and the second you said it you realise that it was stupid? I seem to do it all the time.

I’ll just be talking about something random, and then … bleh… I’ve said something absolutely stupid. I’ll want to take it back. I’ll be thinking, “fuck fuck fuck, why did I say thiat?” “can i take those words back?”

The answer is because your brain is retarded and no you can’t take it back. Some times the words are hurtful and they will make another person sad, but you still can’t take back what you have said.

I’d like to think that you learn from these stuff ups, and that by feeling bad you learn from your mistakes and become a better person, so you don’t make them in the future. But there seems to be so many things to screw up on, so many that you could spend your whole life screwing up every aspect of every thing and still not make the same mistake again to implement the lesson that you have learnt.

I guress I’m just retarded.

I’m sorry. I don’t mean to hurt you, i just often (too often) say shit with out properly thinking about the out come.

*sigh*

I still feel bad, I’m sorry.